I thought that I had found my fullest form of Contentment when I finished writing my 1st book “Finding the Balance” but as it turns out I had only just stepped onto that path. When I finished it I felt a certain level of contentment, the key word here is level, something I have come to understand and recognize after some time has passed. When it comes to personal growth the period of time it takes is different for everyone because of our individuality and because we all learn in our own time. What I should have considered is that with all areas of learning there are many levels and varying degrees and I had only thought I reached full contentment because I felt more empowered, engaged and aware. Little did I know that there was much more, much better to come.
I now know that what I had experienced then was a level of contentment because I now feel that I have moved to another level. The only way I can describe this level is – it feels to be an unshakable faith in myself, where I am, where I’m going and that all things will occur as they are destined to along the way. This level of contentment reinforces my belief that everything (positive and negative) happens for a reason. Both are meant to teach and bring us to a higher level of ourselves and without them we may remain stuck in a never ending cycle of frustration and confusion.
If I allow the little things to bother me along the way I am allowing my ego to inhibit my own growth cycle and that is not something I want to do in any way. Of course there are still times when something I did not expect occurs but my reactive behavior to these unexpected occurrences is starting to adopt a more negotiable mind and I am approaching things from a far more relaxed state of being. I’m not entirely sure if this is something that comes with age, experience, time or all of these but I welcome it because it’s providing me with such a unique, profound and irreplaceable form of happiness. Within this level I have also discovered a greater passion, a greater reason and a greater experience within my purpose.
Part of the change is my focus and where I am directing my attention to and where I’m taking it away from. I’m directing more towards where I want to go, what I want to achieve, how I want to get there and what I want to project along the way.
I’m retracting it from the trivial areas, areas that my ego contributes to. We all have an ego, the hardest thing to do, at times, is to keep that ego in check. It can divert our minds into focusing on things that shouldn’t really bother us. I think we’ve all had one of those days when we got dragged down to a level of communication and behavior that we later regret, that’s our ego winning the battle. It can wreak havoc within our lives when we allow it to carry our thoughts away from the bigger picture.
This really is something that comes from within and I’ve found that in everything I do and commit to if my subconscious isn’t in it 100% then I won’t succeed. I wish I could offer a “one size fits all” process that would help everyone to get to their own “greater meaning of their life”. My own journey to has had its share of ups and downs along the way but knowing how far I’ve come and having faith that there is so much more on the way makes it entirely worth it.
There is a quiet strength and resilience hidden with the state of Contentment. My personal peace and happiness have become the most important state of being that I covet.